i have some important things i need to take care of but i keep putting it off. i just hate running errands by myself! i dunno its almost like im a bit afraid :( i don't get it why cant i just get up and do what needs to be done like everyone else :( im only hurting myself and disappointing the most important people in my life who are expecting so much from me :( and i bet they think i dont care about my future but its not that at all. its fear. how dumb! ugh. i feel so weak! and there just isn't a way to make them understand... only thing to do id just get over it???  easier said than done...

i need kimi ni todoke on manga!!!

wish i could sell some of the unwanted series i have!! im in no need of death note or haruhi suzumiya. i guess ill try ebay again...
i just need some reading material for fall and kimi ni todoke was amazing!!

omg i die!! love this!! if i was a skinny mini this would be me. seeing as i am a chubby bunny those crotch shorts are a no no. lol
but look at that bag!! we sell similar shoes at work but ive never bought them seeing as i hate heels. if they were flat id be all over them!! ::sigh::

well my job sucks. they've dramatically cut my hours and i now have less money than before. looking back i was good! now im poor for reeeaaaallllssss. so my boyfriend says, do you have money for the rent? i say no. he says so your not giving me any money for rent? i say you should know that i don't have any money to give you. he sighs loudly and gets up shaking his head. i say well thanks the way your acting is making me feel worse i hate not being able to give you rent money. he says you should be looking for a better job.
pssshhh
easier said than done i dont have any "skills". im taking care of this problem though u start school again septeber 20th im going for the pharmacy technician certification program.
watever im ranting here so i wont sweat it. cus there really is little to do at this point. i feel i should just wait until im done with my training. i guess ill have to go down to unemployment tomorrow and find out what the deal with that...

it has been raining for the past 2 days and i absolutely love it!! its making the air chilly outside and i can really feel autumn coming our way!! sweaters! hats! boots! scarves! gloves! hot cocoa! books! - these are the things i think about when around this season!! oh not to mention HALLOWEEN!! oh and wigs! cus i hate doing my hair and stepping outside to rain or snow (-__-) ...i wish there was a place in the world where it was fall always. i would be my happiest there.
anywhooo
today i get to go to work and put all the cute things ive been fawning over on layaway!! its employee appreciation week and we get 20% off!! so far i have 3 hats, some ugg type boots, a sweater dress, and some brown leggings in mind. but get this mom said she wold buy the 2 outfits for me!! ah shes the best i loves her!! so yup i get to shop today!! very exited!! shopping makes me happy!



 

woo hoo! my totoro bag and alice in cafe land wig came in today!!! the wig is a bit on the shiny side but the curls are amazing!! it will dull out with time and look more natural. eeekkk so happyyyyy!!! now all thats left is my contact lenses and all will be right with the world...

got made fun of at work today. something about me looking like a pokemon??? i think they meant i look like an anime character... which is mother efffin compliment!! also, i have fat cheeks :)

  waahh kawaii!! i need this in my life!! this will be my school bag! i
EDIT: i got my bf to buy this since im currently broke but i promised to pay him back! phew that was close...